Yes it’s so so so hard to stay in the moment! I think it’s also a generational / cultural thing. We live in a world that allows you to escape away from the present circumstances at the click of a button. It’s a habit.

But it means life passes us by.

I’d wanted to get to the grocery store around 12noon today and didn’t end up getting there until 4pm. There’s no reason that it mattered – I didn’t have anything else that had to be done today. But still, I had to spend several minutes talking myself OUT of being all upset and flustered over the way my big plan got messed up. I ended up being stressed out for several hours over it and then I thought, wow, I just wasted those hours feeling all overwhelmed. How silly. Then I took myself to the store and had a lovely, lovely time. Nothing’s perfect. Ever. Might as well enjoy the journey. And I think learning to roll with the punches is one of life’s most important lessons.

And yeah, the grandma. I love her and I know she loves me. It will work itself out. Mostly by me ignoring her. I just wish, almost more for her sake than anything, that she wouldn’t worry so much. Who knows what it’s like to be a grandmother though. Probably lots of feelings of love and worry and hope for your family. I respect that.

OK, first: I just asked Luke why he closes the shower curtain every night before we go to bed. He said it was because leaving it makes the liner moldy in the folds if it’s open. I said we need to leave it open because if it’s closed, I think someone’s hiding there. It’s such a good place to hide!

I wanna see the “Be” tattoo! What a great, direct, grounded way to say “Enjoy the journey.” That’s something I’m focusing on, too. I think as actors we were so conditioned to be focus on the end result – booking the job. I can imagine it’s similar with the weight loss – getting to That Number. But I know that life is so much sweeter when you’re enjoying the course that gets you to the finish line!

Re: your grandma – tell her to suck it. OK, that might not be so productive. But you seem to know what this “confrontation” (nagging conversation?) will look like, & you seem to have the “I’m a grown-up & know that I’ll be OK” stance, which is great. Any way to communicate that so your grandma understands/quits nagging/treats you as an adult?

That truly is no way to live.

And the phone call…sigh. I’ve only had one person so far that was a semi naysayer to my job quitting and it was basically a woman who never had her own career and told me I am throwing away all my potential. I just chalked it up to her having her own issues of regret and jealous and not a reflect of my decisions.

Good luck with the orders!

Happiness Awaits